Keep it shut

If I were honest with you. I'll tell you what I was taught to not want. Because, yes, I have unreasonable thoughts too. That not even isolation prevented me to think about. 
A little secret of mine, is that I'm not entirely sure what I want. Lately I've been doubting my dreams and what I wanted in life. I doubted if those were mine. Or someone else's to start with. You think I might be joking when I tell you with a bright smile and chuckling that I just want to live far away where the lights of the city are no found and resting on someone's shoulder. That's the only dream I don't reckon they've encouraged. So I guess it's mine.
Isn't that funny? Maybe the conception and expectations you had of me are colliding with this little secret of mine. That's okay. That happened to me too. 
I won't tell i wasn't afraid to think what they might think of this. What they wouldn't add. But I like it just as it is. Now, here's a deeper one. Be careful take this one to the grave.
If someone appeared one day and they loved me like I had only seen in movies and like I've never had imagined you will find me no more away from them. I will love them as much as God has gaven me life. Then with no more than that love and our lives to live. We would disappear in distance. There would be no brighter smile than mine and bigger love than ours. Then I won't never desire or want for nothing more again in my life. 
Big family? Maybe. Big house? Considerable.
Now, I know I can trust you to keep this secret of mine. There's nothing I want more. And there's nothing else I'm dreaming fervently more. 
Will be waiting, Lu.