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A Flower Upon Your Grave

 

A Flower Upon Your Grave

 

I went to put a flower upon your grave.

I thought it’d be an empty place.

I knelt to touch your sacred resting space

And it took a hold of my mind instead.

It held me prisoner and wouldn’t let me go.

It took me far from my injured and saddens soul.

I swear I thought my life would cease to be

While images passed by me 

of things that never more could be.

 

I turned around to see if he was there.

I could almost feel his gentle and caring stare.

I saw the image where he used to stand

As I floated aimlessly through space.

I saw the places we used to walk

The winding paths and heard our endless talks.

The dreams we dreamt as they came to an unpredictable halt.

I was somewhere where I wanted to be

Away from all my misery and longed to be set free.

 

Remember me when I’m gone,

Remember me only if to laugh and to live.            

I heard his voice speak so lovingly.

Sweet and gentle love of mine, he said to me.

Go in peace and don’t cry anymore for me.

I’ll be your comfort but not your pain

I’ll be your strength but not your chain.

I’ll be your laughter but not your tears                               

I’ll be your solace but not your fears.                                  

Take a breath and go in peace.

You have now and forever been set free.